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So if you are under 18, a right wing republican christian or anyone else who is offended by nudity, vulgarity and/or a wanton disrespect for societal norms, consider yourself warned and leave. Oh and might I add, "If thine eyes offend thee, PLUCK THEM OUT". Just don't complain!


~The more defects a man may have, the older he is, the less lovable, the more resounding his success.~
Marquis de Sade


"Allow me to be frank at the commencement. You will not like me. The gentlemen will be envious and the ladies will be repelled. You will not like me now and you will like me a good deal less as we go on. Ladies, an announcement: I am up for it, all the time. That is not a boast or an opinion, it is bone hard medical fact. I put it round you know. And you will watch me putting it round and sigh for it. Don't. It is a deal of trouble for you and you are better off watching and drawing your conclusions from a distance than you would be if I got my tarse up your petticoats. Gentlemen. Do not despair, I am up for that as well. And the same warning applies. Still your cheesy erections till I have had my say. But later when you shag - and later you will shag, I shall expect it of you and I will know if you have let me down - I wish you to shag with my homuncular image rattling in your gonads. Feel how it was for me, how it is for me and ponder. 'Was that shudder the same shudder he sensed? Did he know something more profound? Or is there some wall of wretchedness that we all batter with our heads at that shining, livelong moment. That is it. That is my prologue, nothing in rhyme, no protestations of modesty, you were not expecting that I hope. " from The Libertine and the bottom of Nic's dark soul.

There is in every madman a misunderstood genius whose idea, shining in his head, frightened people, and for whom delirium was the only solution to the strangulation that life had prepared for him.
~Antonin Artaud

I hurt myself today.....to see if i still feel......I focus on the pain......the only thing thats real......The needle tears a hole.....the old familiar sting........try to kill it all away..........but I remember everything........what have I become, my sweetest friend .........everyone i know, goes away in the end.......and you could have it all, my empire of dirt........I will let you down..........I will make you hurt..........I wear this crown of thorns.....upon my liars chair......full of broken thoughts.........I cannot repair..........beneath the stains of time........the feelings dissapear.......you are someone else..........I am still right here.........What have I become, my sweetest friend..........everyone I know, goes away in the end...........and you could have it all, my empire of dirt..........I will let you down............I will make you hurt...........if I could start again, a million miles away..........I will keep myself..........I would find a way.......NINE INCH NAILS







Saturday, July 09, 2005
Biting and Bringing Out the Neurotics



Spectrophobia = Fear of Ghost/Spectres

Ok this was a hard blog to find a picture for (I have actually made this statement prior to finding a picture, so what you see is my attempt at presenting something upsetting {conjuring a neurotic response}), but I had to present something as it is now a challenge to steal (yep no consent) art to match my topic. I was once told by an artist that art should be seen, I figure I am exposing some great art to people who might not be aware of it; but I digress. This blog came about as I was trying to update a blog written on 01/05/04. The subject was Biting My Way Into the New Year; oh hell I'll just copy it here as is, then get on with this blog.

Biting My Way Into The New Year



I guess 5 days into the New Year it is safe to say Happy New Year. I went to a party and can not actually remember anyone shouting happy new year, but there were several other things I couldn't recall either, until I got some feedback the following day. For instance I have no idea why I removed my shoes on the corner of my block; I know I didn't want to wake anyone up but removing them 1/2 block from my door made no sense.

I also was told that I assumed the role of God, and accused people of not recognizing me and apparently bit several people. Its not uncommon for me to bite people I like, but I have no idea who I bit or where. Since no one has called for a rabies quarantine I guess I'm off the hook. I did make it home safely and there were no garment remnants on my grill so feel good about that.

Woke up at 11:30 though and went back to bed until 4:30. Blew a perfectly good day off. Anyway HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL!

Ok back to March 14th.

Anyway I was going to go in and talk about my biting, so I searched the internet for information about any type of psychiatric or medical info related to people who bite. There wasn't much. I bite people I like and love. It is not a vicious bite, merely the giving of pressure on an area of flesh (generally the nape of the neck [Bella Legosi style]), if it is with my lover it may be to the nipple or that tender area on the inside of the thigh just below the pussy or on the shoulder. In lust it is an animal reaction as they bite during mating. Again not vicious, although there was one occasion when this drunken sot tried to stick his tongue in my very heterosexual mouth and I bit down on his lower lip until I could taste the blood. I was sober so didn't go further and he is lucky it only took 15 stitches to repair the damage. I bit him not because of homophobia, but because he stuck his fucking tongue in my mouth without permission. Ok digressed again (damn it).

There was no medical term for biting. It is documented in the Kama Sutra (Love Sutra) as a sexual/sensual play activity (I have always thought so) and in some anthropological studies of more primal civilizations, but nothing to denote it was a sign of mental illness.

I then researched Vampirism (doesn't really apply since I only drew blood that once and don't feed on blood from the neck though I am known for loving menses sex and cunnilingus {warned you and if you have a bad reaction I will be supplying a list of phobias you can look at to find the one you suffer from not me}) and there was alot about Vlad Dracula; the legendary real man that the myth stemmed from, but nothing about a diagnosis. Fruedians, however do have a school of thought: Freudian Sexuality; return of the repressed; fetish-ization; externalized inner states; integration. While the homoerotic school of thought is: The body; coded desire; community. There it was I was externalizing my repressed fetish-ization, integrating it with my coded desire and creating my community. In other words acting on an impulse driven by my sexual nature towards the people I wanted close to me. Not a bad thing as done, but given the natures of those I bit maybe to them.

With regard to the woman who had the nightmare and created the modern dance routine around it, I think the problem is in here court. While looking for my problem I ran across The Phobia List this is that aforementioned list that will allow you to figure out why my like of menses sex (had to say it again) would bother you. As for her however, I am an older, bearded, bald man and I bite her; since there appears to be no fear of being bit on the list I discovered three other possibilities:
Peladophobia=Fear of bald people
Pogonophobia=Fear of bearded people
Odontophobia=Fear of teeth

Personally I think it may also have something to do with the fact that having just ended a hetero-sexual marriage that she now is contemplating a homosexual affair and is sexually very confused.

I am glad that she was able to do something creative with it, but think she has issues far deeper than my bite (no pun). In the mean time I have talked to all my victims including a woman who was kneeling on the bathroom floor at the toilet trying to vomit (apparently as God I commanded her to stop kneeling before me and rise; she told me to "Fuck off" so I knelt down to bite her) and apologized. Sarah (the woman on the floor) responded by saying "no problem, I want to be you in the dance number".


The dance creator may want to pick up: A Woman's Guide to Sexual Fear , as should any man she dates.

Posted at 10:52 am by BondageMaster

 

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I have been both a Master and Dom in the BDSM lifestyle for 40 years. I am currently in Sin City, (Las Vegas, Nevada), but I have plied my art all over the country and yes, the giving of pain and pleasure is an art.

I started this because I thought there might be an interaction between myself and like minded individuals, but found most willing to look and not speak; for this reason I have eliminated the tag board and your ability to comment (Consider yourself gagged).

My Blog has become a reflective self analysis and has enabled Me to vent. It has reflected on my childhood, BDSM and it has been a place to share poetry, stories, and art; all erotic in their own way

Having written here for over three years, I realized that I wanted this to be the home of My impure thoughts and deeds; I decided to create another home for the menusha that comes to mind. I created Alt-Thinkining for those who have an interest in my political and social side and who might be appauled or offended by My more carnal thoughts (I love My carnal thoughts ).

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I am a dominant man. I am just that. I am not dominant because of any superiority on my part. Not because I feel I am more intelligent,or wiser. I do not dominate because of the strength or mass of my body. I am not, nor would I want to be dominant with all women. Yet to you, I am Master.



I am your Master only after earning your trust and and embracing your submissiveness. I have looked into your heart and mind and clearly see your desires and passions. You have thrown away your fears and inhibitions. You tell me of the needs of your heart and body. You have given me total access to your soul, and I accept the responsibility and honor.



You are a woman. You are not weak and inferior because of it. You are a treasure to be cherished. We are not equal. I have the strength of body and mind, and the instinctive need to protect, possess, defend, and provide for you. You are a woman and instinctively stronger of will and heart. Your belief in me gives me courage and direction. Your strength disperses my doubt. Your needs and desires encourage and give purpose to my efforts.



We are not equal. We are halves of a whole. We compliment each other and make each other complete. My desire to dominate you is instinctive. It is not to degrade you nor is it degrading to you because you are secure in being totally feminine. We recognize and accept our worth, and our need for someone to trust and fulfill our needs.



You are sure, strong and proud in your womanhood. You do not submit as acceptance of inferiority, but from strength and passion. You expect a man to stand strong and be a man. You desire and flourish in the strength and control of a man. In return you present the control of your body, unqualified trust and honesty and the faithfulness of your heart.



You submit because I have earned your trust. Because I have opened my heart and soul to you. Because I have listened to your words with my ears and heart and have learned to anticipate your needs and emotions. And because I have proven worthy in your eyes, you have given me the only true treasure of life; You have given me dominance over you.



What you give is not abnormal, but pure, natural and the rarest gift a woman can give a man. You have given me complete and unshakable assurance of your commitment to me. Your submissiveness is a magnificent gift and sacred responsibility. I accept this from you with humility and joy. I understand the rarity and purity of this gift. I recognize it is your body and soul, your heart and mind.

I dominate only because you have allowed me too and when I see you kneel before me, in my mind and heart, you are raised above all other women, and all the treasures on the earth. What you give freely cannot in reality be bought.

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And From a Submissive Woman

I find pleasure, joy, and fulfillment from being submissive to another in a loving relationship. I am not weak, or stupid. I am a strong woman, with firm views and a clear concept of what I want out of my life. I do not serve out of shame or weakness, but out of pride and strength. I look to my loving Master for guidance and protection, for never am I more complete than when he is with me. I know that he will protect my body, my mind, and my soul with his strength and wisdom.

He is everything to me, as I am everything to him. His touch awakens me and his thoughts free me. Only in serving him do I find complete freedom and joy. His punishments are harsh, but I accept them thankfully, knowing that he has my best interests always foremost in his mind. If he desires my body for pleasure, I shall joyfully give it to him, and take pleasure myself from knowing that I have brought him happiness. However, the pleasure of the flesh is but one facet of any relationship. The love, the trust and sharing, the words spoken and felt, those are all parts of this relationship.

My body is his, and if he says I am beautiful, then I am. No matter what I look like to others, I am beautiful in his eyes, and because of that I hold my head high... .. for who can tell me that my Master is wrong in seeing the beauty in me? If he says I am his princess, then I am that...regal and graceful. And if I see laughter at me in the eyes of others, I do not recognize it, for who are they to call my Master wrong?

If he says I am his toy, his slut, his tramp, then I am that...as wanton and dirty as he wants me to be, and if others do not see this, then it is they who are blind, not my Master. My mind is his, to expand, to explore, to know as only he can. I have no secrets from him...for secrets are a thing that would keep me from being more perfectly his. Secrets would put a wall up between my Master and myself...and I do not want walls.

His lessons are not always ones I would seek on my own, but they are lessons he has decided I need, and so I learn from him. My soul is his, as bare to his touch as ever my skin could be when I kneel naked at his feet. Never a moment goes by when I do not feel his presence, be he miles away or standing over me.

I spend my days knowing that the energy and thought he puts into our relationship is as much for my benefit as for his, and look forward to each lovingly crafted scene that we do together.

His part is much harder than mine, and I know this and am grateful that he cares enough about me to spend his time and energy so freely on me. I have the easier job: to feel, to experience, to let myself go and abandon everything to him. I am his pleasure and his responsibility, and he takes both seriously. I am a submissive woman. I am proud to call myself that. My submission is a gift that I do not give lightly, and can only be given to one who can appreciate that gift and return it tenfold.

Only to he who has that strength will I give myself fully, because I am strong and proud.

I am a submissive woman.


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