So if you are under 18, a right wing republican christian or anyone else who is offended by nudity, vulgarity and/or a wanton disrespect for societal norms, consider yourself warned and leave. Oh and might I add, "If thine eyes offend thee, PLUCK THEM OUT". Just don't complain!

~The more defects a man may have, the older he is, the less lovable, the more resounding his success.~
Marquis de Sade

"Allow me to be frank at the commencement. You will not like me. The gentlemen will be envious and the ladies will be repelled. You will not like me now and you will like me a good deal less as we go on. Ladies, an announcement: I am up for it, all the time. That is not a boast or an opinion, it is bone hard medical fact. I put it round you know. And you will watch me putting it round and sigh for it. Don't. It is a deal of trouble for you and you are better off watching and drawing your conclusions from a distance than you would be if I got my tarse up your petticoats. Gentlemen. Do not despair, I am up for that as well. And the same warning applies. Still your cheesy erections till I have had my say. But later when you shag - and later you will shag, I shall expect it of you and I will know if you have let me down - I wish you to shag with my homuncular image rattling in your gonads. Feel how it was for me, how it is for me and ponder. 'Was that shudder the same shudder he sensed? Did he know something more profound? Or is there some wall of wretchedness that we all batter with our heads at that shining, livelong moment. That is it. That is my prologue, nothing in rhyme, no protestations of modesty, you were not expecting that I hope. " from The Libertine and the bottom of Nic's dark soul.

There is in every madman a misunderstood genius whose idea, shining in his head, frightened people, and for whom delirium was the only solution to the strangulation that life had prepared for him.
~Antonin Artaud

I hurt myself see if i still feel......I focus on the pain......the only thing thats real......The needle tears a hole.....the old familiar sting........try to kill it all away..........but I remember everything........what have I become, my sweetest friend .........everyone i know, goes away in the end.......and you could have it all, my empire of dirt........I will let you down..........I will make you hurt..........I wear this crown of thorns.....upon my liars chair......full of broken thoughts.........I cannot repair..........beneath the stains of time........the feelings are someone else..........I am still right here.........What have I become, my sweetest friend..........everyone I know, goes away in the end...........and you could have it all, my empire of dirt..........I will let you down............I will make you hurt...........if I could start again, a million miles away..........I will keep myself..........I would find a way.......NINE INCH NAILS

Saturday, September 01, 2007
Playing With Toyosi or How To Torture A Scammer

I had come to BDSM websites to find a slave and have met several who have been inspiring and several who are there for the cyber fantasy (disappointing bitches, whose masturbatory pastimes are of no interest to me). On this particular day I had an e-mail from a 23 y/o named toyo4luv; her message was direct “I want to be your slave, and serve you for life”. I gave her my yahoo address and told her to contact me there with a photo since none appeared on her profile. She sent this photo.

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She explained to me that she had found my profile and knew I was the Master she wanted to serve, but explained she was in Benin, West Africa. My “scam-dar” alerted me at once that this was indeed a scam, but I decided rather than block her, that I would play along; so Toyosi Ayoade and I began to correspond.

I asked why with so many younger men available to her, did she choose me. “Because I thought you would be perfect for me” (please note her spelling and grammar are all broken what she actually wrote was “ i taugh you may be the rite and perfect man 4me sir”. I have had to endure and translate this for a while, but thought I would spare my readers.) I then told her what a slave belonging to me would have to do, including have my baby (alright I do not actually want a baby, but the idea of having a beautiful Mulatto child, and taking milk from those beautiful black breasts was arousing). She agreed to my every demand. I also demanded more photos; not nudes, but everyday pictures with friends or family. This was a problem for her, because she had no additional photos online. She said that the one that was on there had been taken in a studio, by a friend (I was suspicious) and told her to have them take more. “It is very expensive” was her response (but still no request for money). I asked her to mail me photos, but that too was going to be difficult and expensive. She told me that she was using a cyber café and that it was expensive as well, so I told her to save her money and send the photos or to produce herself on a webcam. The cyber café apparently was being watched by the police, because they thought scammers might be using it, so the owner wasn’t letting people use cams.

Every morning she would contact me on yahoo (a 9 hour time difference) and proclaim her devotion and desire to be with me. Every day I would ask for the photos, health documentation (since Africa is the Aides capitol of the world. “I will see what I can do Master” was her response. I told her she would have to serve a Mistress too, who would use her as she desired. “is she your wife?” she asked and I responded by telling her I was not married and would never marry again. “Is she your slave?” I told her she was and would be my number 1; “Oh I will take that position from her” she was informed that would not happen, so she began sending greetings to her Mistress as well.
A week after these conversations began I told her she would have to obtain a visa if she wanted to come here.

ayoade ruth (8/15/2007 6:28:10 AM): it is the most difficult in the world
ayoade ruth (8/15/2007 6:32:28 AM): i asked an agent
ayoade ruth (8/15/2007 6:33:49 AM): i need a statement of account
ayoade ruth (8/15/2007 6:34:30 AM): run medicals in their hospital
DS (8/15/2007 6:34:38 AM): how much in the account?
DS (8/15/2007 6:34:56 AM): yes a health clearance
ayoade ruth (8/15/2007 6:35:14 AM): about 15000usd
D S(8/15/2007 6:35:26 AM): no way
ayoade ruth (8/15/2007 6:39:21 AM): i do not mean for you to pay
ayoade ruth (8/15/2007 6:40:05 AM): the agent will prvide
ayoade ruth (8/15/2007 6:40:05 AM): that just to cover me
ayoade ruth (8/15/2007 6:41:33 AM): that is if i give
ayoade ruth (8/15/2007 6:41:33 AM): it to the agent
ayoade ruth (8/15/2007 6:41:33 AM): it will not cost much only 350 usd

Finally there is a hook. Instead of $1500, I can get this girl for $350; what a deal. I told her to give me the agent’s number so I could talk to them, but she said they only spoke French. She said I could send her the money and she would take care of it (yeah right). I told her that nothing would occur until I saw more photos or saw her on a web cam. she agreed to make arrangements to go on cam the next day.

The following day she appeared.

DS (8/18/2007 10:15:44 AM): you do not look like the photo
DS (8/18/2007 10:16:07 AM): you are prettier
ayoade ruth (8/18/2007 10:16:29 AM): thinks
DS (8/18/2007 10:16:50 AM): the girl in the photo was lighter, but I prefer your dark skin
ayoade ruth (8/18/2007 10:17:43 AM): the pics was taken outside and here its dark in here sir

***She had said that it was taken in a studio

D S (8/18/2007 10:19:05 AM): when can the agent prepare the paperwork for the visa
ayoade ruth (8/18/2007 10:19:26 AM): as soona s i pay the agent sir
DS (8/18/2007 10:19:56 AM): and how do we pay the agent
ayoade ruth (8/18/2007 10:22:43 AM): my slave friend when she hasd this kind of travels arrangement she got her money tru Weestern Union sir
DS (8/18/2007 10:23:43 AM): who does it go to
ayoade ruth (8/18/2007 10:24:31 AM): me or the agent but i prefer me so that ic an pay to their cashier and have the receipt sir

The following day I told her that I would not send any money through Western Union and told her I would fly there to get her. I explained that Western Union didn’t like sending money to Africa because of all the scammers, so I would fly there on September the 1st. and bring her back on the 9th. Then I gave her a phony flight agenda. She continued to try and tell me it would be cheaper doing it her was and I continued to refuse.
The next series of IM’s said that she was thrilled that I was coming. Then there was the email:

“Hello Master,
How are you today?. i was very excieted when you said you are coming to benin. benin is a very beautiful place and you will enjoy it i want you to meet y friends over here whom i have told about you. i also want you to met my mother and get to know her.i will get a beautiful hotel where would stay when you come sir. i will prepare a local meal fof you when you arrive. i look foward to seeing you in benin my lord.
your slave”

My response:

I am sorry I have been neglecting your messages, my work here has been very busy and I have been trying to make arrangements for time away from the office to get to Benin. I am eager to meet and spend time with you alone. If I meet your mother it would be a short visit and I am not sure appropriate given the nature of our relationship; does she want her daughter to be a slave?

If there is a kitchen in the room then you can prepare a meal, otherwise we will be eating out. I will take possession of you when I arrive, from that point on you will be my slave.


Another ploy:

hello mater,
i am very happy for your now, i want us to continue with the visa so that when you arrie it will be ready.also i need some money to buy some things for my self and to make me look good for your arrival my love. pis, lets act fast to save soon as you send the money i will start the arrangement with the agent and get some things for your arrival. i am very happy that you are making progress about my comming . hope to hear from you soon my love iwill be waiting for your replysoon ilove you.

Another response:

You have told me that the visa will take 3 days to obtain and I have scheduled to be there for over a week, so it will be obtained while I am there, no sooner. As for clothing, I will buy what I want you to wear and bring. you will be limited to no more than two suitcases and since I plan on providing more clothing and lingerie for you once you are here, do not want you buying more clothing there.

you will be patient and do as told, if you can not do that now then we have a problem. I expect obedience and do not like anyone who argues with me. you will have what you need when I arrive, until then you will be patient.


As the day of my departure (or so she thought) drew close, there was another attempt to get money.:

Hello My love,
i am not questioning you opinion. the visa will take two weeks that was what i told you sir and that is why i asked you to send the money on time so that it will be processed on time.since you want it your way , i will do as you say but you will see to my opinion at last cos i may not go with you cos the visa will not be out before our depature thet i am laying so much enphasis on getting the visa on time so that we both leave together 350 usd will not last me more then a month cos i have spent close to that on our relationship. anyway since you are bringing the cloths over here i will just need some cash for my hair do and my make ups so that i will lock good for and to come to the cafe for you till you arrive my love. i am financially down for regards to my mistress tell i will come with you to the u.s soon.i love you.

At this point I began to burst her bubble (slowly, I am a sadist after all). I told her that I would not be sending any money for anything via Western Union, that after I arrived I would take her to the agent, then to the hotel where I would strip her and use her for my pleasure. That she could then put on her new clothes and I would take her to have her hair done and eat. I went on to say that she would not be allowed to leave my side.

Time was fleeting I was to arrive in two days or so she believed. I decided to add to her misery. I get emails regularly from Africans who profess to be insurance or bank representatives of one agency or another who have discovered millions in unclaimed cash and who want to “give” it to me if we can work out arrangements. I generally tell them I have contacted INTERPOL (the international police agency) and that they have told me that they had an open investigation on them and would be arresting the scammer soon. This time I struck first and created a bogus insurance company and agent, then emailed her:

I am purchasing Travelers Life Insurance for myself and you, but the agent has concerns with regards to our relationship. you need to confirm that we know each other and are engaged. I can not insure you otherwise or name you as a beneficiary. I expect he will contact you; his name is Larry Jameson. Just respond with brief answers.

Soon I will have you in my arms and bed; we will then begin your training
The Agents email:

To: Toyosi Ayoade

From: Larry Jameson
Mutual Life Insurance of Louisiana
1451 Poydras St.
New Orleans, LA. 70112

Re: Travelers Insurance Policies, Purchaser Dominic Santos

Mr. Santos has purchased life insurance policies on himself and you in the amount of $10,000,000 USD each. This insurance is only valid for the duration of the trip he has scheduled from New Orleans Louisiana USA to the West African Republc of Benin between September 1, 2007 and September 9, 2007. In the event of his death you will inherit the sum of $10,000,000 if you can proof of your relationship to him (marriage, sister etc).

Please explain how you are related to Mr. Santos and the number of years you have maintained this relationship. I also require your date and place of birth.

We at Mutual Life Insurance hope you have a very pleasant trip.

Her Response:

Hello Sir,
I have known my Dominic Santos for over two years and he hapens to be my fiancee. i was born in Nigeria west africa on the first of october 1984.

yours faiyhfully Toyos Ayoade

The conclusion:

DS (8/30/2007 10:13:46 AM): YES
ayoade ruth (8/30/2007 10:14:01 AM): hello sir
DS (8/30/2007 10:14:03 AM): where have you been
ayoade ruth (8/30/2007 10:14:39 AM): i am away from my house
DS (8/30/2007 10:14:51 AM): where
ayoade ruth (8/30/2007 10:15:22 AM): cus a friend who i have been borrowing much money from to come to cafe has ben giving me so much problems
ayoade ruth (8/30/2007 10:15:22 AM): cotonou but away from my house
ayoade ruth (8/30/2007 10:15:33 AM): can not go home
ayoade ruth (8/30/2007 10:15:54 AM): i mat leave for village now cus of the debt
DS (8/30/2007 10:16:30 AM): you should not have borrowed money to go to the cafe
ayoade ruth (8/30/2007 10:17:11 AM): i have been cus i taught you will help me out all this days
DS (8/30/2007 10:17:11 AM): did the insurance man contact you
ayoade ruth (8/30/2007 10:17:27 AM): Master this is not how to treat a good slave like me
ayoade ruth (8/30/2007 10:17:27 AM): yes
ayoade ruth (8/30/2007 10:17:39 AM): that is not what i need this moment sir
DS (8/30/2007 10:17:44 AM): did you supply him the information
ayoade ruth (8/30/2007 10:17:54 AM): that can't solve my problems now Master
DS (8/30/2007 10:18:17 AM): you are not my slave yet
ayoade ruth (8/30/2007 10:18:22 AM): i will Master and i wanted to give you a slave contarct for before but i do n ot have much i will make that later
ayoade ruth (8/30/2007 10:18:43 AM): is this what you have in mind or how do i be your slave sir ?
DS (8/30/2007 10:18:53 AM): I do not need a contract
ayoade ruth (8/30/2007 10:18:58 AM): all this while just telling me am not your property
ayoade ruth (8/30/2007 10:19:04 AM): very good
ayoade ruth (8/30/2007 10:19:19 AM): i neevr knew you would treat me as this
ayoade ruth (8/30/2007 10:19:50 AM): since you know am not your slave why do you make insurance on me the ????/?
ayoade ruth (8/30/2007 10:19:55 AM): WHY ????
DS (8/30/2007 10:20:42 AM): you become my slave when I take ownership and that will happen when you are physically with me, not over a computer
DS (8/30/2007 10:21:12 AM): The insurance is to cover you while you are traveling with me
ayoade ruth (8/30/2007 10:21:28 AM): but you should know i mey not come to you either since you are not taking me as your slave and i do not trust you
ayoade ruth (8/30/2007 10:21:39 AM): no that is not the issue right now
DS (8/30/2007 10:21:54 AM): oh what is the issue
ayoade ruth (8/30/2007 10:22:05 AM): that is fake mail
ayoade ruth (8/30/2007 10:22:05 AM): you sent that from your hand
DS (8/30/2007 10:22:20 AM): no I did not
DS (8/30/2007 10:22:32 AM): why would I do that
ayoade ruth (8/30/2007 10:22:37 AM): the issue is that have been using my money on talking to you and now wm owing so much and you eneded me in debt
ayoade ruth (8/30/2007 10:22:37 AM): you did
ayoade ruth (8/30/2007 10:23:01 AM): pls we do not need to talk about your insurance yet cus am not yet your slave
DS (8/30/2007 10:23:02 AM): why would I do that
ayoade ruth (8/30/2007 10:23:13 AM): don't know
ayoade ruth (8/30/2007 10:23:23 AM): i deserve more than you
ayoade ruth (8/30/2007 10:23:54 AM): i do not think if you can even sponsore motherless home at all
ayoade ruth (8/30/2007 10:23:59 AM): can u ?
ayoade ruth (8/30/2007 10:23:59 AM): am not sure
DS (8/30/2007 10:24:02 AM): Fine then find another, you have spent little compared to what I have spent on Airfare
ayoade ruth (8/30/2007 10:24:13 AM): qand youc an not even give beggers ?
ayoade ruth (8/30/2007 10:24:34 AM): i have no bisiness with that
ayoade ruth (8/30/2007 10:24:48 AM): you made me away from seriious MASTERS
DS (8/30/2007 10:24:49 AM): and I have none with your debt
ayoade ruth (8/30/2007 10:24:55 AM): I SHOULD HAVE HANGED UP WITH EARLIER
DS (8/30/2007 10:25:03 AM): good bye
ayoade ruth (8/30/2007 10:25:08 AM): I SHOUDN'T HAVE BEEN WITH YOU
ayoade ruth (8/30/2007 10:25:13 AM): BYE
ayoade ruth (8/30/2007 10:25:13 AM): FUCK OFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF
ayoade ruth (8/30/2007 10:25:18 AM): FUCK OFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF
ayoade ruth (8/30/2007 10:25:24 AM): MAD MAND
ayoade ruth (8/30/2007 10:25:29 AM): MAD COCK
ayoade ruth (8/30/2007 10:25:34 AM): DUNB COCK
ayoade ruth (8/30/2007 10:25:40 AM): SMALL LITTLE COCK
ayoade ruth (8/30/2007 10:25:56 AM): CAN'T DO ANYTHING ON MYU PUSSY
ayoade ruth (8/30/2007 10:26:12 AM): IF YOU COME HERE AT THE AIRPORT I WILL MAKE SURE I KIL YOU
ayoade ruth (8/30/2007 10:26:17 AM): USELESS Master
ayoade ruth (8/30/2007 10:26:17 AM): MAD MADN
ayoade ruth (8/30/2007 10:26:26 AM): MAD MAN
DS (8/30/2007 10:26:57 AM): you see my little scammer, I never had an interest but it has been fun fucking with you
ayoade ruth (8/30/2007 10:27:12 AM): FUCK YOU MOTHER
DS (8/30/2007 10:27:20 AM): she's dead
ayoade ruth (8/30/2007 10:27:25 AM): YOOUR
ayoade ruth (8/30/2007 10:27:30 AM): YOU ARE A RITUALIST
ayoade ruth (8/30/2007 10:27:35 AM): AND YOUR DAUGHTER
ayoade ruth (8/30/2007 10:27:41 AM): YOU WANT TO USE ME FOR RITUALS
ayoade ruth (8/30/2007 10:27:58 AM): ANIN'T YOU ?
ayoade ruth (8/30/2007 10:28:08 AM): YOU THINK AM DUNB LIKE YOU ?????????????????????????????????///
ayoade ruth (8/30/2007 10:28:13 AM): DUNB COCK
DS (8/30/2007 10:28:42 AM): I never had an interest in using you for anything, you came to me and I played the game get over it
DS (8/30/2007 10:29:09 AM): hahahahahaha
ayoade ruth (8/30/2007 10:29:15 AM): THAT IS YOUR BUNISESS MY DEAR
ayoade ruth (8/30/2007 10:29:20 AM): HAVE SEEN ANOTHER MASTER
ayoade ruth (8/30/2007 10:29:25 AM): YOU NEVER
ayoade ruth (8/30/2007 10:29:30 AM):
ayoade ruth (8/30/2007 10:29:35 AM):
ayoade ruth (8/30/2007 10:29:40 AM):
DS (8/30/2007 10:29:49 AM):
ayoade ruth (8/30/2007 10:29:54 AM): <:-P
ayoade ruth (8/30/2007 10:30:13 AM): WHEN DID YOU ESCAPED FROM THE HOSPITAL ?
DS (8/30/2007 10:30:19 AM): bye toyosi, good luck
ayoade ruth (8/30/2007 10:30:24 AM): LAST MONTH ???
ayoade ruth (8/30/2007 10:30:40 AM): GOOD LUCK TOO MAD ,MAD
ayoade ruth (8/30/2007 10:30:40 AM): DUNB COCK
ayoade ruth (8/30/2007 10:31:01 AM): FUCK YOUR WHOLE FAMILY AND YOUR DAUGHTER
ayoade ruth (8/30/2007 10:31:06 AM): THEY ARE ALL SLAVES
ayoade ruth (8/30/2007 10:31:11 AM): NOT ME
ayoade ruth (8/30/2007 10:31:42 AM): ????
ayoade ruth (8/30/2007 10:31:42 AM): FUCK OFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF


Some people can not take what they dish out. Once I stopped laughing I blocked her and sent her this:

I am sorry to inform you that Mr. Santos has cancelled his trip and the related policies

L. Jameson
Mutual Life Insurance
Sales and Marketing

Her response:


Posted at 07:15 pm by BondageMaster


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I have been both a Master and Dom in the BDSM lifestyle for 40 years. I am currently in Sin City, (Las Vegas, Nevada), but I have plied my art all over the country and yes, the giving of pain and pleasure is an art.

I started this because I thought there might be an interaction between myself and like minded individuals, but found most willing to look and not speak; for this reason I have eliminated the tag board and your ability to comment (Consider yourself gagged).

My Blog has become a reflective self analysis and has enabled Me to vent. It has reflected on my childhood, BDSM and it has been a place to share poetry, stories, and art; all erotic in their own way

Having written here for over three years, I realized that I wanted this to be the home of My impure thoughts and deeds; I decided to create another home for the menusha that comes to mind. I created Alt-Thinkining for those who have an interest in my political and social side and who might be appauled or offended by My more carnal thoughts (I love My carnal thoughts ).

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I am a dominant man. I am just that. I am not dominant because of any superiority on my part. Not because I feel I am more intelligent,or wiser. I do not dominate because of the strength or mass of my body. I am not, nor would I want to be dominant with all women. Yet to you, I am Master.

I am your Master only after earning your trust and and embracing your submissiveness. I have looked into your heart and mind and clearly see your desires and passions. You have thrown away your fears and inhibitions. You tell me of the needs of your heart and body. You have given me total access to your soul, and I accept the responsibility and honor.

You are a woman. You are not weak and inferior because of it. You are a treasure to be cherished. We are not equal. I have the strength of body and mind, and the instinctive need to protect, possess, defend, and provide for you. You are a woman and instinctively stronger of will and heart. Your belief in me gives me courage and direction. Your strength disperses my doubt. Your needs and desires encourage and give purpose to my efforts.

We are not equal. We are halves of a whole. We compliment each other and make each other complete. My desire to dominate you is instinctive. It is not to degrade you nor is it degrading to you because you are secure in being totally feminine. We recognize and accept our worth, and our need for someone to trust and fulfill our needs.

You are sure, strong and proud in your womanhood. You do not submit as acceptance of inferiority, but from strength and passion. You expect a man to stand strong and be a man. You desire and flourish in the strength and control of a man. In return you present the control of your body, unqualified trust and honesty and the faithfulness of your heart.

You submit because I have earned your trust. Because I have opened my heart and soul to you. Because I have listened to your words with my ears and heart and have learned to anticipate your needs and emotions. And because I have proven worthy in your eyes, you have given me the only true treasure of life; You have given me dominance over you.

What you give is not abnormal, but pure, natural and the rarest gift a woman can give a man. You have given me complete and unshakable assurance of your commitment to me. Your submissiveness is a magnificent gift and sacred responsibility. I accept this from you with humility and joy. I understand the rarity and purity of this gift. I recognize it is your body and soul, your heart and mind.

I dominate only because you have allowed me too and when I see you kneel before me, in my mind and heart, you are raised above all other women, and all the treasures on the earth. What you give freely cannot in reality be bought.

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I find pleasure, joy, and fulfillment from being submissive to another in a loving relationship. I am not weak, or stupid. I am a strong woman, with firm views and a clear concept of what I want out of my life. I do not serve out of shame or weakness, but out of pride and strength. I look to my loving Master for guidance and protection, for never am I more complete than when he is with me. I know that he will protect my body, my mind, and my soul with his strength and wisdom.

He is everything to me, as I am everything to him. His touch awakens me and his thoughts free me. Only in serving him do I find complete freedom and joy. His punishments are harsh, but I accept them thankfully, knowing that he has my best interests always foremost in his mind. If he desires my body for pleasure, I shall joyfully give it to him, and take pleasure myself from knowing that I have brought him happiness. However, the pleasure of the flesh is but one facet of any relationship. The love, the trust and sharing, the words spoken and felt, those are all parts of this relationship.

My body is his, and if he says I am beautiful, then I am. No matter what I look like to others, I am beautiful in his eyes, and because of that I hold my head high... .. for who can tell me that my Master is wrong in seeing the beauty in me? If he says I am his princess, then I am that...regal and graceful. And if I see laughter at me in the eyes of others, I do not recognize it, for who are they to call my Master wrong?

If he says I am his toy, his slut, his tramp, then I am wanton and dirty as he wants me to be, and if others do not see this, then it is they who are blind, not my Master. My mind is his, to expand, to explore, to know as only he can. I have no secrets from him...for secrets are a thing that would keep me from being more perfectly his. Secrets would put a wall up between my Master and myself...and I do not want walls.

His lessons are not always ones I would seek on my own, but they are lessons he has decided I need, and so I learn from him. My soul is his, as bare to his touch as ever my skin could be when I kneel naked at his feet. Never a moment goes by when I do not feel his presence, be he miles away or standing over me.

I spend my days knowing that the energy and thought he puts into our relationship is as much for my benefit as for his, and look forward to each lovingly crafted scene that we do together.

His part is much harder than mine, and I know this and am grateful that he cares enough about me to spend his time and energy so freely on me. I have the easier job: to feel, to experience, to let myself go and abandon everything to him. I am his pleasure and his responsibility, and he takes both seriously. I am a submissive woman. I am proud to call myself that. My submission is a gift that I do not give lightly, and can only be given to one who can appreciate that gift and return it tenfold.

Only to he who has that strength will I give myself fully, because I am strong and proud.

I am a submissive woman.

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Vlad's Resurrection Part II

The Libertine of Libby Part 1
The Libertine of Libby Part 2
The Libertine of Libby Part 3
The Libertine of Libby Part 4
The Tawdry Tale of Tommy Two Tongues Part 1
The Tawdry Tale of Tommy Two Tongues Part 2
The Tawdry Tale of Tommy Two Tongues Part 3
The Libertine of Libby Part 5
The Libertine of Libby Part 6
The Libertine of Libby Part 7
The Libertine of Libby Part 8
The Libertine of Libby Part 9
The Libertine of Libby Part 10 (Last Chapter)

j's Seduction
j's Objectification
Recreating j
Educating j

The Photo Shoot Part 1
The Photo Shoot Part 2

Electra's Story Part 1
Electra's Story Part 2

Sunday's Child Part 1

Short Stories
(For those seeking immediate gratification)

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The Book
De Sade, the Orgy and the Trial
I Cum In Peace
Biting My Way Into The New Year
Her Master's Test
Off White, Six Defective Doms and One Pathetic Troll
Going Postal
The New Year's Party

Nocturnal Events
Nocturnal Emissions
Love's Garden
Patty On A Leash/Re-written
To Confess or Not To confess
Binding of Kay
Raising Bella Donna
One Last Good-bye
Spare the Rod, Spoil the Sub
Stella In The Stacks
Red Rain
Breakfast With A Twist
Mon Couer's Papillon (My Heart's Butterfly)
When Daddy's Girl is Bad
The Sitter, The Voyeur and Graduation Day
Please Don't Hurt Me
Cumalot or Knights In Tarnished Armor
Her Halloween Date
His Voice
Life's Little Ironies
The Gift
My Slut ester
Playing With Toyosi
The Slave Auction
#9 - A Detective Story

Ramblings and Observations
(For those who want a piece of My mind)

Puppy Love
Cunniliguis As A Religious Rite
Players, Pretenders and Abusers
Edgeplay and the Knife
My Youth
BDSM Website Security
On Missing Play
Beads a Semi-Fictional Account
Playing With Toyosi or How To Torture A Scammer
Hospital Stories

Photo Interpretations
(As I See It)
La Image'
La Image' II
The Shower
My Toy
Daddy's Girl
Chocolate and Roses
Special Delivery
Waiting II
Edge Play
This Flesh
Not Watching
Tango 2
Inside of You
Mentally bound
His Flower
Her Grief

Poetry of a sort
(very little rhymes)

Faded Words on Yellowing Paper
I Was
submissive position

Ladies of the Night

Bedtime Stories
My Love Fable
Pond of Sorrow and Tears
The Journey

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Extreme Body Modification
(Warning some of these photos may offend, even people with twisted minds)


(They May Spank You For Viewing)

Married Man's Fucktoy
Now Tease Me
Incubus Dreams
Peep Show Stories
Annie's Spanking Good Blog
Vue du dedans
Dee Reawakening
Polyfetishist Directory
The Abyss
Mostly Appropriate
Shadow Of A Soul
Liz Vicious Fan Site
La Libertine's Salon
T of Reknin Day
Siren's Song
The Ties That Bind
Mistress Matisse's Journal
3xL : Lust, Love & Latex
Sensual Liberation Army
News For Perverts
The Spanking Blog
Art Of Love
Spanking Art
Pillow Book

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